I hate this!!

I am a forgetful person,
so I must not forget.

For I am depressed.

I hate the happiness of youth,
I hate the sadness of unborn pain,
I hate the vicious tyrants rule,
I hate the shy needy-less poor.

I dont want to be happy,
I must not forget that I am angry,
I must not forget,
I hate this.

This wretched, cross eyed world!!

Most of all I am lonely,
right down to the core.
Of who I am, and who I am not.
I hate this lonely dark, uncertain place.

For I do not know what to do here,
I do not know who to be here.
I do not know how to remember,
sadness here.

So I am lost.

Between a dying grown, and a happy hello.